Realization and Reflection.

Lately I’ve been getting extremely frustrated with life. I have a lot of difficult things going on in my life right now, and they’re really hard for me to handle. I have so many people telling me how to live my life, what I should be doing, and what my limits are. I hate that so many people fail to realize that life has no limits. There isn’t a set line that people can’t cross. So many people are telling me what to do with my life, but in the end, I guess it all comes down to what I want. People can’t just go around telling me what I should be, or shouldn’t be doing with my own life. So many people try to rush through important parts of their lives due to pressure, but I think we all need to take our time. It may seem like our decisions come out of the woodwork, but I feel that everyone should take their time to think about what’s best for them. Often I see people making decisions based on what they think they belong doing, and not on what they love doing and it’s moments like those that make me sad. If you’re someone who wants to try to change the world, go for it! Just don’t forget to save yourself some humility. Live and let live. So many people settle, they settle into things that make them unhappy. If something doesn’t work, make it work. Never settle.

This year has been an eye opening year for me. They say it takes just one person to come into your life and turn your entire world upside down. That one person can change your views. Before this year, I have never been cast into such an intense friendship. I’ve met people this year that I’ll never forget no matter what happens to me in the long run. I’ve met a person who I trust one hundred and ten percent, someone who I can talk to effortlessly, and someone I care about more than anything in the world. I’m extremely thankful for that. So often I focus on the terrible things in my life, and bring attention to them with emo facebook statuses, or pouty looks. There is so much good in my life that I fail to see on a daily basis.

Do I wish things were different from the way that they are? Absolutely. Given the chance there are things I would do all over again to change the way things are now, but the fact of the matter is, I can’t. There are so many things I want to be different, but dwelling on these unchangeable events isn’t going to get me anywhere. We all just have to keep plowing on.

I believe in a balance of good and bad. And I believe that most people will have a balance in their lives. Everything happens for a reason, and just because we don’t see the reason right away doesn’t make that statement any less true to me. The world is shit, but there is so much good within it. We all make mistakes. We’re all human. There isn’t anything we can do to change the past, so let’s all stop dwelling on it. In the end, it comes down to the people who surround you. Without them, who are you?